- Move with intent and purpose, don’t be rushed and frantic.
- Have ability to create for a living, but also create (for) passion.
- Be present and focused.
Here are my 2020 “New Years Resolutions”. This small list isn’t a normal or measurable list of something that can be tracked. This year I am focusing on quality of life and organization. I spent a lot of time evaluating things that make me frustrated in my life currently, and the overarching theme is disorganization, lack of focus and indecisiveness. I spend a lot of time in my head thinking big ideas and not taking the time to prep and plan before I try to execute them. Feeling disorganized is overwhelming, and causes a lot of anxiety because it leaves me frantic. By not having basic structure in my life I am preventing myself from reaching my full potential.
I don’t want to write about my grandiose plans of organization and how to implement structure, because I don’t know what will ultimately be effective yet.
Overall, 2019 was a very difficult year for me. Emotionally and mentally the year really tried me in ways that I couldn’t imagine. Ultimately, I had to face the music that until I sorted certain emotional baggage, and faced issues that I had been allowing to build, I would never be able to grow past where I was. Growth, as it turns out to no ones surpise, can be extremely uncomfortable and full of a lot of not-so-trendy, not-so-attractive work.
It’s hard to hear the music: Sometimes you are the biggest problem in your own life.
Like many people, I was operating in a comfortable level of dysfunction. Since my issues were not completely inhibiting me, I thought I was managing everything. As it turns out, these problems when simply “managed” and not dealt with and worked through, continue to build year after year, and as a result become increasingly harder to manage. The energy spent managing these issues, is energy taken from achieving your goals. In short, you are cheating your future self by not facing your past self. I feel like I am moving in the right direction now, through physical therapy, less caffeine, regular therapy and a lot of garbage bags, I have begun the process of being a more rounded person. And, I know that I can only improve from here.
The biggest advice I can offer is to make a large goal and then break it down into manageable steps that are more manageable and measurable.
Happy new year! Excited to get back into blogging and restructuring this platform a bit.